While there's a chance I could deliver exactly on time, or up to 2 weeks late, any earlier and he misses the birth. Sure, I can call Red Cross when I go into labor, they send it up the command, and within a few hours he's on a plane to come back... but the whole process will take about 12 hours at the absolute fastest, and will most likely be closer to 24 hours. Don't get me wrong. I'm glad he'll get to see our son shortly after he's born, but it's not the same as having him there for the labor - the time in my life I feel like I need him the most.
And my doula decided this morning that she wasn't comfortable with our situation.
So the one thing that I thought was going to get me through this labor with him gone, is, well, gone.
I understand where she's coming from. We were going to try to bend "the rules" of the insurance company and go to my hospital of choice instead of the military hospital 30-45 minutes away. I got the OK from Tricare to "do what I needed to do" if I thought I couldn't make it there in time, and luckily the hospital I want to deliver at is 5-10 minutes down the road.
I still have to look a little deeper into my options, but there's not much time left. I don't know if the doctors will take me this far along in the game. I only have about 2 prenatal visits left, and then the actual delivery.
We're struggling financially right now, trying to get everything we need for when the baby finally gets here, and I worry about the cost of deductibles and copays and such.... but at this point I would do almost anything to avoid birthing at Tripler.
Maybe we'll just have to be broke for a while.
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