But wait..

There's been an interesting turn of events lately.
Firstly, I got back my GRE scores. Not good. At least not to me. They changed the format of the test so I can't even compare my raw scores to what the University wants. They did give me my percentiles, and the numbers made me cry. For math I got better than 65%. Disappointing, but pretty much what I expected since I had to teach myself almost everything. Verbal was 77%. Not terrible considering my vocab knowledge was next to nil before I got the prep book, but compared to the A's and B's I got in college the score seems almost insulting. And finally, the sour cherry on top of my disappointing sundae....for writing....29%. Now, I know it's been about 5 years since I've written an essay, but a 3.5 out of 6? I read the sample essays for scores of 3 and 4 and there is NO WAY my essay was that incoherent. Seriously, my heart sunk. Grad school? Good-bye.
And, based on what the 4 recruiters I have talked to have said, the chances of me getting in and doing what I want without my doctorate are slim. People just don't move from enlisted to medical so they don't have a program that facilitates it. Air Force currently has about a 1% acceptance rate, and Army has said they will do what they can to get me in, but right now I would outright fail the PFT.
It's been discouraging to say the least, but this turn of events does have a silver lining.
I recently started selling Pampered Chef products. I was nervous at first but finally came to the conclusion that even if I couldn't sell, I wanted enough of the products anyway that the investment would be worth it. And it has been. After getting my first shipment of products I got SO excited about all the things I could do with them. I mean, more excited than anyone should get over cooking tools. But it made me realize something. I love cooking. It's the one thing I have remained passionate about my entire life. While I have an extreme interest in psychology and could probably never learn enough about it, it's not the same thing as being passionate. Cooking makes me happy. It relaxes me. And teaching other people how to cook delicious food that is also healthy gets me all fired up.
It may not offer health insurance, or a monthly allowance for housing, but I think I'm really going to love this job.